Life app. Bible-

Unbelief and rejection breaks God's heart, because He knows the consequences. But when the door of the human heart is shut, He refuses to enter forcibly. He will only knock, wanting to gain admittance. He has given us the ability to choose. But when we choose the wrong thing, He knows the repercussions that will follow—in this life and the one to come.

I can sit in a wheelchair with hope and joy...ask me why! ........

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Mama`s Path

Mama's Path has been slow and weary but one her kids were destined to travel later. Mom married our Father years and years ago...... There marriage produced 6 kids, but the marriage only lasted 13 years. Mom was left to raise clothe and feed us on 300.00 a month. She took a job as a clerk in a dry cleaning establishment and then got her last job working as owner-agent for Greyhound Bus Depot. There she worked 6 days a week 10 hours a day for 31 years , no sick leave , no benefits, no vacation, no retirement. The Bus Depot closed its doors in 2002 with 4 hours notice, and mom survived on unemployment and then social security. Life was hard but its all my mother has known. My mother was married to my step-father in 1973. that union was difficult because of alcoholism and physical abuse by my step-father. During this time my mother was diagnosed with a form of Muscular Dystrophy called Freidrich`s Ataxia. This disease takes away balance, speech and muscle coordination eventually a wheelchair is needed within a 10-15 year period. The diagnosis was in 1980. My step-father didn't want to deal with it and left in 1980. All these years my mother has coped with her life changes by herself working and paying the bills living near poverty levels and still she keeps on going. I marvel at the courage and conviction my mom has and stamina!!!! I always thought I would do things differently or better in my life, little did I know I cannot keep up with my Mom nor fill her shoes. My path is the same as my mother's. I have been diagnosed with this disease and every day is a challenge for my family and myself. I scream and cry and rage with frustration but my mom always lights my way by example. She has done without for so many years and still no end in sight. And she continues will I just like my mother has shown me, thank you Mom for being my mother, God has surely blessed me.