You Never Let Go by Matt Redman

I woke up this morning with this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y83-vMeWc9E loudly in my head….Cousin Frank was placed on a waiting list for a liver….it is him I prayed for this Saturday morning to Father God. He is a child of God, chosen by Him! Whatever the will of God I am reminded by Paul “to die is gain, but I press on towards the goal” in Philippians 1 I am understanding what Paul is saying about the who and why of tribulations and not being apart of the swirls going on around him good or bad but the teaching’s of Jesus to a lost and dying world that is the goal. Speaking to Jaylee this morning I feel as if the things of the world are calling for her attention. I have been talking to her about a relationship and talking to God….she does not understand “relationship” so telling her I had to make her understand every second of every day we carry God in out heart who sees everything we say and do and from our heart knows why we are doing it…closer even than mom to her….it is my intention to give her God, a true picture from the Bible. “Just think if President Obama called you and said I want to be your friend and called you 2-3 times a day and listened to you and talked to you would that not be amazing”…like a child I did not understand how God wanted to know me….me…little insignificant wheelchair wife mom…angry, selfish, liar, thief, murderer….I have broken His laws sometimes 100 or more times in a week…..but still He wants to know me…..and help me…and show me…………..God’s Love so perfect and true. I listened to a teaching bringing to mind Joe his wife Lovely, his 3 children and mother going to Africa on a missionary trip….”Blessed are the peace makers” “ beautiful are the feet who bring the good news” Romans 10: 13-15 When I first met Jesus I expected Him to take me over my troubles, I had my heart set on a human Jesus, He has shown me by taking me thru my life and circumstances that he IS love and love does not keep me from going thru the turmoil but teaches me to stand and face it….I have real problems Praising God in the midst of devastation but He has taught me the winds may blow but my prize is Him!….a family member is going back to church…so so great and absolutely a terrific choice!….but I have found reading my Bible puts me face to face with God, it is a mirror holding my life up to what God wants from me. A Pastor said on radio you can’t be saved and not believe the Bible…. When I say God’s words I cannot hide. Church is a beautiful way to be apart of serving God, but reading the Bible brings you into direct contact with God and a relationship. It also helps you to discern what is or who is of God. The many questions about God are answered in the Bible and the ones not answered……become less important and irrelevant. It is so good to be on solid ground, especially when the winds are gale force.

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