Life app. Bible-

Unbelief and rejection breaks God's heart, because He knows the consequences. But when the door of the human heart is shut, He refuses to enter forcibly. He will only knock, wanting to gain admittance. He has given us the ability to choose. But when we choose the wrong thing, He knows the repercussions that will follow—in this life and the one to come.

I can sit in a wheelchair with hope and joy...ask me why! ........

Saturday, August 13, 2011

blogging "my tattoos"

was out for the first time …seems like a year…Friday around 6 pm no kids!! for Jaylee’s ice cream social to get to know her 3rd grade teacher. So many people sporting tattoos! Jaron likes to “tag” so it seems “tagging” the body has become cool. People walked too fast to get a good look! It is really colorful and before they speak I get a sense of “them“, I think it’s kinda like wearing your best clothes only you can never change them. At 52 now my thoughts feelings and out look on life have completely changed from 20-30 and 40 … I am sure will keep changing as I grow older and more experienced in life…anyways * smells *many people, buildings* weather* so much to see I feel so far away from life.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

JJ Heller - What Love Really Means (Official Music Video)

November starts the journey

It has been awhile since I have written, I guess collecting my thoughts and time has been a struggle so I have put it off till now. In Nov hubby had a diagnosis of stomach cancer and so I have begun a new journey with God even closer at my side. Charles Stanley said “the bridge to adversity drives you closer to God.” and so my view of God is clearer! I have known how majestic God is….flowers sky earth stars…everywhere I look ,touch ….kids, grandkids, hubby, …and now personal, His lovingkindness is to each child of His, how encompassing, how perfect. My Pastor has been teaching about giving consistently and trusting God to provide. I have many hands and feet of God who have rushed to help me….my son Jason daughter in law Cheri grandsons Elijah and Aidan….church family Laynie, Cyndi, Rossi, Bobbi Jo Franck, Jeff, Libby, Vic, Autumn, Summer …..neighbors, Karen and Sam, George and Zudy, Merl and Shirley, Larry and Jana, Don and Helen, Phil and Rollie and Betty, Judy… Family Mom Dad Kim Larry John Jeff Lisa Bill Pam Brett Amanda Frank Chito We’g Daren Nikki Eleanor Pete Tecia Nell Aunt Blanche Aunt Jenny Uncle George little George Lisa CJ Will Davina Jehu Brenda…….I am sure I am forgetting names but so many provided meals and babysitting services rides and words of comfort….it seems every time I would get anxious about something I would ask Father God…2 hours later I would be provided for. I have a vision of Elijah hiding in the cave and God took care of him providing food and water and comfort….and now I can say I have experienced the lovingkindness God provides. “trust” is difficult in everything but God can be trusted. I have heard over and over again but experiencing it is a journey worth going on. When difficulties come I avert my eyes and hold my breath looking for the easiest way thru. I had a day where I was overwhelmed looking at the future and I came home to find a message on my phone from Jim Click, the message was very warm and enquiring…Jim Click knows my name how cool is that! God is even closer still counting the very hairs on my head, He thinks of me every day how mind boggling is that! Laynie took me to a Christian comedian show and on I-10 I saw thousands and thousands of houses …I felt like a grain of sand in humanity and wondered how can God hear me, but he does…imagine that! Life journeys are still going on but I know my Father God better, I am still gun shy on journeys but my eyes are getting wider on each Journey. When I look back to my first blog 4 years ago, how I have changed in my thinking and dealing with my family. I have many miles to go but I am thankful I am on the journey of being God’s kid. I have a picture in my head of the cross and Jesus walking hand in hand with lots and lots of children and we are going home. I have been writing on this since November, Eddie is doing chemo and back to work…I can’t say God made everything perfect but I can say where I am, God is with me and I have had the pleasure of seeing The character of God up close and personal.