Life app. Bible-

Unbelief and rejection breaks God's heart, because He knows the consequences. But when the door of the human heart is shut, He refuses to enter forcibly. He will only knock, wanting to gain admittance. He has given us the ability to choose. But when we choose the wrong thing, He knows the repercussions that will follow—in this life and the one to come.

I can sit in a wheelchair with hope and joy...ask me why! ........

Thursday, April 05, 2012

a wonderful way to study the Bible

When reading my Bible I like to see where each author is coming from and I really really like John. It was there where I found out about what Jesus thinks about disability not man, I also saw who Jesus is. The author “John” states he is “the apostle Jesus loved” …this Gospel of John was written thru eyes who loved, there is so much understanding when reading this book for those who are seeking answers. Again and Again I have read John it has become my favorite, just like King David his heart was in his relationship with Jesus. Heart and motivation that defines a relationship

Saturday, March 31, 2012

cleaning house

I have so many blogs written but I have not followed thru putting them on the computer would not turn on and I was so afraid I had lost my "mamas walk with God" folder....hopefully like a diary when Jaylee gets old enough maybe she will want to read them...the only legacy worth leaving to her. Hopefully I have more to say but facebook is the one that is easiest for me and only requires few words.

more thoughts

I really don’t know how to start this blog so I will jump in with my thoughts! This whole world was giving by God for people to live in, even our bodies created by God is the “tent” that houses the soul…..and like a rebellious child I say I will do this “life” by myself. Many people of God try to explain why we need God…God is our Father our families mirror that relationship…if our kids at 13 say “It is my life and I will live the way I am happiest” but still live with me and expect me to provide and feed them all of sudden “tough love” is enacted! If my kids come to me and tell me their rules and how they want things, again it’s a no go! I have to make them see my way is best or they can live the way they want outside my care. I have been in the wheelchair now 3 years and I understand that life is tough, unfair, and sometimes impossible. On the flipside there are many moments to cherish, remembered and lovingly enjoyed. How close every single living human being is to being in a wheelchair by one cell or catastrophe death or accident of a loved one…so many scenarios that play out on the news everyday. As I get older it is not IF it is WHEN, life is unfair and that should point us to God. We can’t expect God to go by our rules and that’s why I read the Bible, God has his rules and ways, everything God needs US to know is in the Bible….there are so many who died to bring us this knowledge from 3000 + years ago. How funny we hold people in such high esteem. I frequently like to listen [discern] how different people tell me about God. When they speak God’s words {Bible} They have my attention, but when they speak of God from “their” words it gives me a picture of their walk…. Christian songs tell me a lot of the writer and their walk with Jesus too that’s why I identify with so many songs and feel “simpatico“ with so many because we journey together. With my Jaylee I know her favorite colors ,songs ,picts moods…I spend hours every day …feeding, bathing [serving], talking…..and if I don’t know I ask her…that is a “relationship” an “intimate” relationship a “committed“ relationship. Wow the God of the universe wants a relationship with each and every soul he has created so now I am ,God’s child given a new name and purpose! The God who is Jesus created every little piece of sand in this whole world! Who numbers the hair of every individual living wow wowee there is no mysticism… no to do list ….just welcome ,come as you are and follow me, live as I want you to live and WE will journey this life TOGETHER. Bread and Water to live by….I never imagined I would love God’s way…..I lived in rebellion for 45 years all alone and this way even in a wheelchair is difficult but I see my forever clearly defined by God. The joy of knowing God makes sitting in the wheelchair a blessing….I will be with Jesus in Heaven doing cartwheels and running with my Jaylee, join us =].

my thoughts

Thoughts: when we die we bring our thoughts and memories to heaven…Adam and Eve were forbidden to eat of the tree of life when they were driven from the Garden….good and evil tree they did eat. When we go to heaven will we be like the angels knowing good and evil AND living forever, can we then be like Lucifer and also able to fall? I find it interesting that the devil reads the Bible but his comprehension is like us because IF he knew how everything would come to pass he would have pursued Jesus differently. I think every day that “things” come in our live and there are 1 million different ways “things” can play out. God knows each and every way because He sees beyond behind sideways up and down to best fit it to our benefit. Our Stories are like how many grains of sand is in the world…… how many atoms in a grain of sand…endless I cannot get my brain around the clarity that God sees! Like “ Horton the Elephant” ..on and on it goes that we cannot see…That helps me to realize how much in charge my God is and I could NEVER go the way that is best for me….I give up happily and say “yes Lord”.

Pearl of Great Price

Teaching Jaylee numbers yesterday there are only 0123456789.………and those numbers in different combinations are unending…even computers are not able to come to the end! Ray Comfort spoke of how amazing that many people who have lived to now and the trillion since earth was born, how many different faces have been made and NO ONE exactly alike even identical twins….2 eyes nose and mouth trillions of combinations and God has made every one of them….the heartbeats “On an average, the heart of an adult beats about 72 times a minute and that of a child beats between 90

“ the heart contracts more than 100,000 times a day to drive blood through about ...

When your child is born another of God’s calling cards, I as a mom looked intently at the hands fingers toes and marveled how this could be living inside my body. ……. Isaiah 12** It is I who made the earth
and created mankind on it.
My own hands stretched out the heavens;
I marshaled their starry hosts…… Isaiah 40: 12-13 ** It is I who made the earth
and created mankind on it.
My own hands stretched out the heavens;
I marshaled their starry hosts.

Eddie has worked more than 30 years on cars and I have NEVER NEVER seen a car made out of nothing,… it took a lot of work a lot of time a lot of money. .you can’t fill up the tank of gas once and expect to drive it for 30 years on that one tank and no breakdowns…there is a verse in the Bible that God says “He has given evidence of Himself………… I like how Dr McGee makes sense when revealing God’s word. Dr McGee wrote of “hell”   and Joni Eareckson Tada said “ A little taste of hell is being a quadriplegia

in a wheel chair....sitting waiting thinking wishing wanting….past …in a lifetime so difficult but imagine forever….hell to a wheelchair user is to be healed and strong physically but not being able to move or see…that IS NO HOPE. Dr McGee speaks of a time just before dawn…I know well what he speaks of…in the dark the worst fears attack health money kids bills family friends roll in like ocean waves engulfing you filling you with fear…is this….will this…how is this…what is…so many scenarios imagination keeps going and going….and then hope=God breaks thru…and we go on. There ARE blessings and curses in a wheelchair……….oh how difficult it is, but it has given me the chance to study God’s word to make a connection with God…when I was driving and walking I was too busy to learn about God, but now that I am here what I have learned and continue to learn PRICELESS, “The Pearl Of Great Price “ Matthew 13: 44-46 … I have found.. what I have learned like the grains of sand in my yard then I look beyond my yard town state country and on and on it goes never-ending……...takes my breath away to see such knowledge…and quite glad it is not my job to know everything……..Jaylee, could you imagine the homework!!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

blogging "my tattoos"

was out for the first time …seems like a year…Friday around 6 pm no kids!! for Jaylee’s ice cream social to get to know her 3rd grade teacher. So many people sporting tattoos! Jaron likes to “tag” so it seems “tagging” the body has become cool. People walked too fast to get a good look! It is really colorful and before they speak I get a sense of “them“, I think it’s kinda like wearing your best clothes only you can never change them. At 52 now my thoughts feelings and out look on life have completely changed from 20-30 and 40 … I am sure will keep changing as I grow older and more experienced in life…anyways * smells *many people, buildings* weather* so much to see I feel so far away from life.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

JJ Heller - What Love Really Means (Official Music Video)

November starts the journey

It has been awhile since I have written, I guess collecting my thoughts and time has been a struggle so I have put it off till now. In Nov hubby had a diagnosis of stomach cancer and so I have begun a new journey with God even closer at my side. Charles Stanley said “the bridge to adversity drives you closer to God.” and so my view of God is clearer! I have known how majestic God is….flowers sky earth stars…everywhere I look ,touch ….kids, grandkids, hubby, …and now personal, His lovingkindness is to each child of His, how encompassing, how perfect. My Pastor has been teaching about giving consistently and trusting God to provide. I have many hands and feet of God who have rushed to help me….my son Jason daughter in law Cheri grandsons Elijah and Aidan….church family Laynie, Cyndi, Rossi, Bobbi Jo Franck, Jeff, Libby, Vic, Autumn, Summer …..neighbors, Karen and Sam, George and Zudy, Merl and Shirley, Larry and Jana, Don and Helen, Phil and Rollie and Betty, Judy… Family Mom Dad Kim Larry John Jeff Lisa Bill Pam Brett Amanda Frank Chito We’g Daren Nikki Eleanor Pete Tecia Nell Aunt Blanche Aunt Jenny Uncle George little George Lisa CJ Will Davina Jehu Brenda…….I am sure I am forgetting names but so many provided meals and babysitting services rides and words of comfort….it seems every time I would get anxious about something I would ask Father God…2 hours later I would be provided for. I have a vision of Elijah hiding in the cave and God took care of him providing food and water and comfort….and now I can say I have experienced the lovingkindness God provides. “trust” is difficult in everything but God can be trusted. I have heard over and over again but experiencing it is a journey worth going on. When difficulties come I avert my eyes and hold my breath looking for the easiest way thru. I had a day where I was overwhelmed looking at the future and I came home to find a message on my phone from Jim Click, the message was very warm and enquiring…Jim Click knows my name how cool is that! God is even closer still counting the very hairs on my head, He thinks of me every day how mind boggling is that! Laynie took me to a Christian comedian show and on I-10 I saw thousands and thousands of houses …I felt like a grain of sand in humanity and wondered how can God hear me, but he does…imagine that! Life journeys are still going on but I know my Father God better, I am still gun shy on journeys but my eyes are getting wider on each Journey. When I look back to my first blog 4 years ago, how I have changed in my thinking and dealing with my family. I have many miles to go but I am thankful I am on the journey of being God’s kid. I have a picture in my head of the cross and Jesus walking hand in hand with lots and lots of children and we are going home. I have been writing on this since November, Eddie is doing chemo and back to work…I can’t say God made everything perfect but I can say where I am, God is with me and I have had the pleasure of seeing The character of God up close and personal.