Quiet ssshhhhhh

I so much enjoy the quiet, listening to TV looking outside as the wind blows.......a storm is coming!! Jaron will be home from school in 30 mins and Jaylee will be up and the fighting will be on!!! Time to pray, time to think, time to..........times up!!! Oh well it was heavenly while it lasted.....

Mama`s Path

Mama's Path has been slow and weary but one her kids were destined to travel later. Mom married our Father years and years ago...... There marriage produced 6 kids, but the marriage only lasted 13 years. Mom was left to raise clothe and feed us on 300.00 a month. She took a job as a clerk in a dry cleaning establishment and then got her last job working as owner-agent for Greyhound Bus Depot. There she worked 6 days a week 10 hours a day for 31 years , no sick leave , no benefits, no vacation, no retirement. The Bus Depot closed its doors in 2002 with 4 hours notice, and mom survived on unemployment and then social security. Life was hard but its all my mother has known. My mother was married to my step-father in 1973. that union was difficult because of alcoholism and physical abuse by my step-father. During this time my mother was diagnosed with a form of Muscular Dystrophy called Freidrich`s Ataxia. This disease takes away balance, speech and muscle coordination eventually a wheelchair is needed within a 10-15 year period. The diagnosis was in 1980. My step-father didn't want to deal with it and left in 1980. All these years my mother has coped with her life changes by herself working and paying the bills living near poverty levels and still she keeps on going. I marvel at the courage and conviction my mom has and stamina!!!! I always thought I would do things differently or better in my life, little did I know I cannot keep up with my Mom nor fill her shoes. My path is the same as my mother's. I have been diagnosed with this disease and every day is a challenge for my family and myself. I scream and cry and rage with frustration but my mom always lights my way by example. She has done without for so many years and still no end in sight. And she continues ........so will I just like my mother has shown me, thank you Mom for being my mother, God has surely blessed me.

OOOOwwhhhiie my back

Today I`m moving slow and bent-over, but I`m still moving! Veterans Day and am very thankful for many who have fought and died so I can vote and live a life with some comforts. Giving my children a life that they can be anything!! No flashlight needed today but an extra cane would surely help. http://anyservicemember.navy.mil/About.html http://anyservicemember.navy.mil/About.html

All grown up How`d that happen.....

Go for a ride!
Go for a ride!

Flashlight is on

I`m walking slow tippy toe walks, but at least I`m moving. C needed 400.00 our half of contributions to T's funeral in November 14 2001. Need to save for Christmas so we don`t have to credit card it. Bills need to be paid off and home needs to be wheelchair accessible. Kids need there things first...... I give it to God because it is too overwhelming, God can work miracles and I will see one come to pass with us.

living in a box

Let me out, I am ready to go forward. I need a light and a walking stick to walk the road of life. I am at the crossroads in my life to make a move or lose what I have left . Which way do I go ? I guess I`ll just keep moving till I find my answer