Brandon Heath - Jesus In Disguise - Official Lyric Video

a wonderful way to study the Bible

When reading my Bible I like to see where each author is coming from and I really really like John. It was there where I found out about what Jesus thinks about disability not man, I also saw who Jesus is. The author “John” states he is “the apostle Jesus loved” …this Gospel of John was written thru eyes who loved, there is so much understanding when reading this book for those who are seeking answers. Again and Again I have read John it has become my favorite, just like King David his heart was in his relationship with Jesus. Heart and motivation that defines a relationship        http://www.oneplace.com/ministries/thru-the-bible-with-j-vernon-mcgee/custom-player/

cleaning house

I have so many blogs written but I have not followed thru putting them on the net..my computer would not turn on and I was so afraid I had lost my "mamas walk with God" folder....hopefully like a diary when Jaylee gets old enough maybe she will want to read them...the only legacy worth leaving to her. Hopefully I have more to say but facebook is the one that is easiest for me and only requires few words.

more thoughts

I really don’t know how to start this blog so I will jump in with my thoughts! This whole world was giving by God for people to live in, even our bodies created by God is the “tent” that houses the soul…..and like a rebellious child I say I will do this “life” by myself. Many people of God try to explain why we need God…God is our Father our families mirror that relationship…if our kids at 13 say “It is my life and I will live the way I am happiest” but still live with me and expect me to provide and feed them all of sudden “tough love” is enacted! If my kids come to me and tell me their rules and how they want things, again it’s a no go! I have to make them see my way is best or they can live the way they want outside my care. I have been in the wheelchair now 3 years and I understand that life is tough, unfair, and sometimes impossible. On the flipside there are many moments to cherish, remembered and lovingly enjoyed. How close every single living human being is to being in a wheelchair by one cell or catastrophe death or accident of a loved one…so many scenarios that play out on the news everyday. As I get older it is not IF it is WHEN, life is unfair and that should point us to God. We can’t expect God to go by our rules and that’s why I read the Bible, God has his rules and ways, everything God needs US to know is in the Bible….there are so many who died to bring us this knowledge from 3000 + years ago. How funny we hold people in such high esteem. I frequently like to listen [discern] how different people tell me about God. When they speak God’s words {Bible} They have my attention, but when they speak of God from “their” words it gives me a picture of their walk…. Christian songs tell me a lot of the writer and their walk with Jesus too that’s why I identify with so many songs and feel “simpatico“ with so many because we journey together. With my Jaylee I know her favorite colors ,songs ,picts moods…I spend hours every day …feeding, bathing [serving], talking…..and if I don’t know I ask her…that is a “relationship” an “intimate” relationship a “committed“ relationship. Wow the God of the universe wants a relationship with each and every soul he has created so now I am ,God’s child given a new name and purpose! The God who is Jesus created every little piece of sand in this whole world! Who numbers the hair of every individual living wow wowee there is no mysticism… no to do list ….just welcome ,come as you are and follow me, live as I want you to live and WE will journey this life TOGETHER. Bread and Water to live by….I never imagined I would love God’s way…..I lived in rebellion for 45 years all alone and this way even in a wheelchair is difficult but I see my forever clearly defined by God. The joy of knowing God makes sitting in the wheelchair a blessing….I will be with Jesus in Heaven doing cartwheels and running with my Jaylee, join us =].

my thoughts

Thoughts: when we die we bring our thoughts and memories to heaven…Adam and Eve were forbidden to eat of the tree of life when they were driven from the Garden….good and evil tree they did eat. When we go to heaven will we be like the angels knowing good and evil AND living forever, can we then be like Lucifer and also able to fall? I find it interesting that the devil reads the Bible but his comprehension is like us because IF he knew how everything would come to pass he would have pursued Jesus differently. I think every day that “things” come in our live and there are 1 million different ways “things” can play out. God knows each and every way because He sees beyond behind sideways up and down to best fit it to our benefit. Our Stories are like how many grains of sand is in the world……http://waynesword.palomar.edu/ww0704b.htm how many atoms in a grain of sand…endless I cannot get my brain around the clarity that God sees! Like “ Horton the Elephant” ..on and on it goes that we cannot see…That helps me to realize how much in charge my God is and I could NEVER go the way that is best for me….I give up happily and say “yes Lord”. http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ezekiel%201&version=MSG

Pearl of Great Price

Teaching Jaylee numbers yesterday there are only 0123456789.………and those numbers in different combinations are unending…even computers are not able to come to the end! Ray Comfort spoke of how amazing that many people who have lived to now and the trillion since earth was born, how many different faces have been made and NO ONE exactly alike even identical twins….2 eyes nose and mouth trillions of combinations and God has made every one of them….the heartbeats “On an average, the heart of an adult beats about 72 times a minute and that of a child beats between 90


“ the heart contracts more than 100,000 times a day to drive blood through about ...

When your child is born another of God’s calling cards, I as a mom looked intently at the hands fingers toes and marveled how this could be living inside my body. ……. Isaiah 12** It is I who made the earth
and created mankind on it.
My own hands stretched out the heavens;
I marshaled their starry hosts…… Isaiah 40: 12-13 ** It is I who made the earth
and created mankind on it.
My own hands stretched out the heavens;
I marshaled their starry hosts.

Eddie has worked more than 30 years on cars and I have NEVER NEVER seen a car made out of nothing,… it took a lot of work a lot of time a lot of money. .you can’t fill up the tank of gas once and expect to drive it for 30 years on that one tank and no breakdowns…there is a verse in the Bible that God says “He has given evidence of Himself………… I like how Dr McGee makes sense when revealing God’s word. Dr McGee wrote of “hell”   http://ht.salemweb.net/zcast/thru-the-bible-questions-and-answers/2012/03-31/263634/thru-the-bible-questio_2012-03-31_questions-answers_20120306174914.mp3?type=streaming   and Joni Eareckson Tada said “ A little taste of hell is being a quadriplegia

in a wheel chair....sitting waiting thinking wishing wanting….past …in a lifetime so difficult but imagine forever….hell to a wheelchair user is to be healed and strong physically but not being able to move or see…that IS NO HOPE. Dr McGee speaks of a time just before dawn…I know well what he speaks of…in the dark the worst fears attack health money kids bills family friends roll in like ocean waves engulfing you filling you with fear…is this….will this…how is this…what is…so many scenarios imagination keeps going and going….and then hope=God breaks thru…and we go on. There ARE blessings and curses in a wheelchair……….oh how difficult it is, but it has given me the chance to study God’s word to make a connection with God…when I was driving and walking I was too busy to learn about God, but now that I am here what I have learned and continue to learn PRICELESS, “The Pearl Of Great Price “ Matthew 13: 44-46 … I have found.. what I have learned like the grains of sand in my yard then I look beyond my yard town state country and on and on it goes never-ending……...takes my breath away to see such knowledge…and quite glad it is not my job to know everything……..Jaylee, could you imagine the homework!!

blogging "my tattoos"

was out for the first time …seems like a year…Friday around 6 pm no kids!! for Jaylee’s ice cream social to get to know her 3rd grade teacher. So many people sporting tattoos! Jaron likes to “tag” so it seems “tagging” the body has become cool. People walked too fast to get a good look! It is really colorful and before they speak I get a sense of “them“, I think it’s kinda like wearing your best clothes only you can never change them. At 52 now my thoughts feelings and out look on life have completely changed from 20-30 and 40 … I am sure will keep changing as I grow older and more experienced in life…anyways * smells *many people, buildings* weather* so much to see I feel so far away from life.

Embrace Life - always wear your seat belt

JJ Heller - What Love Really Means (Official Music Video)

November starts the journey

It has been awhile since I have written, I guess collecting my thoughts and time has been a struggle so I have put it off till now. In Nov hubby had a diagnosis of stomach cancer and so I have begun a new journey with God even closer at my side. Charles Stanley said “the bridge to adversity drives you closer to God.” and so my view of God is clearer! I have known how majestic God is….flowers sky earth stars…everywhere I look ,touch ….kids, grandkids, hubby, …and now personal, His lovingkindness is to each child of His, how encompassing, how perfect. My Pastor has been teaching about giving consistently and trusting God to provide. I have many hands and feet of God who have rushed to help me….my son Jason daughter in law Cheri grandsons Elijah and Aidan….church family Laynie, Cyndi, Rossi, Bobbi Jo Franck, Jeff, Libby, Vic, Autumn, Summer …..neighbors, Karen and Sam, George and Zudy, Merl and Shirley, Larry and Jana, Don and Helen, Phil and Rollie and Betty, Judy… Family Mom Dad Kim Larry John Jeff Lisa Bill Pam Brett Amanda Frank Chito We’g Daren Nikki Eleanor Pete Tecia Nell Aunt Blanche Aunt Jenny Uncle George little George Lisa CJ Will Davina Jehu Brenda…….I am sure I am forgetting names but so many provided meals and babysitting services rides and words of comfort….it seems every time I would get anxious about something I would ask Father God…2 hours later I would be provided for. I have a vision of Elijah hiding in the cave and God took care of him providing food and water and comfort….and now I can say I have experienced the lovingkindness God provides. “trust” is difficult in everything but God can be trusted. I have heard over and over again but experiencing it is a journey worth going on. When difficulties come I avert my eyes and hold my breath looking for the easiest way thru. I had a day where I was overwhelmed looking at the future and I came home to find a message on my phone from Jim Click, the message was very warm and enquiring…Jim Click knows my name how cool is that! God is even closer still counting the very hairs on my head, He thinks of me every day how mind boggling is that! Laynie took me to a Christian comedian show and on I-10 I saw thousands and thousands of houses …I felt like a grain of sand in humanity and wondered how can God hear me, but he does…imagine that! Life journeys are still going on but I know my Father God better, I am still gun shy on journeys but my eyes are getting wider on each Journey. When I look back to my first blog 4 years ago, how I have changed in my thinking and dealing with my family. I have many miles to go but I am thankful I am on the journey of being God’s kid. I have a picture in my head of the cross and Jesus walking hand in hand with lots and lots of children and we are going home. I have been writing on this since November, Eddie is doing chemo and back to work…I can’t say God made everything perfect but I can say where I am, God is with me and I have had the pleasure of seeing The character of God up close and personal.

Casting Crowns - Prayer For A Friend

I listened to this and it brings to mind 2 pages of people's names in my Bible..... SOME Family Church Family Friends MSN Friends....may you find no rest and no peace till you hear Jesus speaking to your heart ...

Pete Maravich Testimony 1987 (Billy Graham Crusade)

Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ

~ Philippians 3:8, NLT

here I am....

http://www.ccftucson.org/ccftweekly2010.htm Scott Richards do as the world= when trouble comes, run in circles scream and shout ….or.. I love how Pastor Scott Richards encourages and turns his sheep back to God, back to the Bible, back to prayer back to listening to God….a teaching that uplifts and points the way! Jaylee leaving for school this morning surprised me with her prayers. Getting her ready for school on time and cooperation can be difficult as the past few days have been, but before she left I ask her if she wants to pray and try to focus on her….. how God blesses her day and how she can shine God’s light by being kind and helpful and sharing…and she asks God to make me feel better, she cups my face and says may God heal you and help you =]. Sweet moments but after she goes reality hits and I cough and ache my way thru the day………………………I wrote this back in September and much has transpired. I appreciate that you have kept me on your radar Joe, Nita Gerry…..just getting thru refinancing, school issues and health problems with husband Eddie. My church family are also keeping me on radar…my Mom and Dad and Kim his wife and old friends…..it is amazing how God works! We are moving right along one foot in front the other. I tend to have limited time now so I read friend’s blogs and move on =]. Thank you my MSN friends for being so vigilant and encouraging*************************** No one has ever seen God. But if we love each other, God lives in us, and his love is brought to full expression in us.
--1 John 4:12, NLT

Brandon Heath - Give Me Your Eyes

Paradigm Shift

We wear the world's eyes, reminds me of Brandon Heath's song " give me Your eyes".....

You Never Let Go by Matt Redman

I woke up this morning with this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y83-vMeWc9E loudly in my head….Cousin Frank was placed on a waiting list for a liver….it is him I prayed for this Saturday morning to Father God. He is a child of God, chosen by Him! Whatever the will of God I am reminded by Paul “to die is gain, but I press on towards the goal” in Philippians 1 I am understanding what Paul is saying about the who and why of tribulations and not being apart of the swirls going on around him good or bad but the teaching’s of Jesus to a lost and dying world that is the goal. Speaking to Jaylee this morning I feel as if the things of the world are calling for her attention. I have been talking to her about a relationship and talking to God….she does not understand “relationship” so telling her I had to make her understand every second of every day we carry God in out heart who sees everything we say and do and from our heart knows why we are doing it…closer even than mom to her….it is my intention to give her God, a true picture from the Bible. “Just think if President Obama called you and said I want to be your friend and called you 2-3 times a day and listened to you and talked to you would that not be amazing”…like a child I did not understand how God wanted to know me….me…little insignificant wheelchair wife mom…angry, selfish, liar, thief, murderer….I have broken His laws sometimes 100 or more times in a week…..but still He wants to know me…..and help me…and show me…………..God’s Love so perfect and true. I listened to a teaching bringing to mind Joe his wife Lovely, his 3 children and mother going to Africa on a missionary trip….”Blessed are the peace makers” “ beautiful are the feet who bring the good news” Romans 10: 13-15 When I first met Jesus I expected Him to take me over my troubles, I had my heart set on a human Jesus, He has shown me by taking me thru my life and circumstances that he IS love and love does not keep me from going thru the turmoil but teaches me to stand and face it….I have real problems Praising God in the midst of devastation but He has taught me the winds may blow but my prize is Him!….a family member is going back to church…so so great and absolutely a terrific choice!….but I have found reading my Bible puts me face to face with God, it is a mirror holding my life up to what God wants from me. A Pastor said on radio you can’t be saved and not believe the Bible…. When I say God’s words I cannot hide. Church is a beautiful way to be apart of serving God, but reading the Bible brings you into direct contact with God and a relationship. It also helps you to discern what is or who is of God. The many questions about God are answered in the Bible and the ones not answered……become less important and irrelevant. It is so good to be on solid ground, especially when the winds are gale force.

JJ Heller - What Love Really Means (Official Music Video)

Lead me to the Cross - Hillsongs

On Dr J Vernon McGee yesterday a listener wrote in that he was serenaded in a jail cell by Dr McGee……..that speaks volumes about God’s words and his servants he shines thru! He serenaded me with his words, and he made a way for me to come back home…who is He…..He is Jesus who died on the cross for me, God with a face, the Jesus of the Bible [ the word]…..we so much want to put a face on God…black white Asian female….who is Jesus….His character is exactly God …..all who have eyes to see and hearts to understand are serenaded by Him with his words. Truth leads to love forever … You thrill me, Lord, with all you have done for me! I sing for joy because of what you have done.
~ Psalm 92:4, NLT
Jaylee and Jaron go back to school Monday I am so ready but not ready for the changes that occur in scheduling and amount of work. I find I am getting more tired just doing mundane things like talking. It is such an effort to maintain word sounds and have caught my kids making me repeat what I say 2-3 times…progression of slurred speech apparently. Being on a phone requires too much energy so I choose who I talk too. I am trying to get Jaylee up to 2nd grade requirements and that is difficult to maintain a level I want, reading out loud is like walking. I went to a function for family at a different church. It was something I thought would last 1 hour if that, 3 hours later Eddie and Jaylee got out as fast as they could. I was dressed in t-shirt jeans and hubby too, they were starving! And I was very impressed with jelly….she with-
stood 2 ½ hours before she started squirming! …all in church were dressed in suit and ties and women in skirts and jackets and high heels. I felt out of place carrying a ball and gift bag. The preaching was 3 hours and included a preaching about going to the right church walking in a fathers footsteps and also prayers for healing. I didn’t put my hand up because I did not want to be forced to walk. I do believe in miracles… Ramona [ church family] who has Parkinson’s at our church uses a walker and she would shake a lot. The new meds she is on has reversed her condition. She was walking into church on her own and I was shocked…..but oh so happy that she has had a miracle….in the US Drs, hospitals, medications those are miracles that God has put in place to heal people today. Anyways I was surrounded by this church and prayed for, how wonderful and grateful I am that they would ask God to heal me. Nick Vujicic Joni Eareckson Tada so many who either have diseases or suffered mishaps in life are shinning examples of godly men and women who continue with “a thorn in their side” and God has yet to heal them. The preaching was done by 3 different preachers who were very skilled orators, but I had a very hard time listening or staying with them…..all preaching was out of the Bible. I did not realize how different worship in church’s are. Our Pastor talks in parables using pictures or teaching shorts teaching shorts " emphasizing the lesson from the Bible and how to live our daily lives that worship God. I also really like our band, when they sing it is the Pastor’s song written by them and is a teaching in it self. The words flash on the screen and give me time to think and understand and how it applies to me and loved ones friends and strangers, there is indeed many ways of worship at Church‘s. All my blogging is for my kids should they be reading….Jaylee, when she gets old enough to understand Jaron and Jason, I pray follow Jesus….“do you know sweetie, do you know Jesus. Have you been serenaded by His words, his truth, His love, His righteousness……..is he the love of your life….open the Bible and be prepared to fall in love“!

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